Lay It Down

An anguish infuses my being For me there’s no end in sight The attack has left it’s sting I avoid it with all my might   I’m clutching onto my agony It’s too much for me to bear I’m drowning in my tears Screaming “Life it isn’t fair!!”   Grasping the burden is too much…

The Dungeon

Each step down into the gloom Ignites fear within. Without light you cannot see As the darkness swallows you.   Searching feverishly and wantonly Trailing a glimpse of light That will reveal the shadows, Expose the dreary depths.   That little crevice exposes promises broken, Sleepless nights amid endless tears Clothed in pain, the dungeon…

Witness to Destruction

A child was tainted, love redefined. Innocence snatched forever. No one collected her tears while she owned her shame.   Waves of pain fueled madness. Swirls of anger polluted the air. An appalling witness flooded into the valley of demise.   Hope faltered in the polluted soul. Tainted memories strangled her goodness. Acceptance included no…

War Within

Raging within is a fight A brawl that leaves me speechless Memories march in to destroy any purity in me As God whispers of His love Confused from the madness I want to fight against the shame Too weary now to face it So I ask God to ease my pain I surrender all my…

The Light of Grace

Darkest dreams flood into the night after hearing the fate of another’s plight Wearing disgust and full of disgrace Once again wondering if I’m a hopeless case Fighting the urge to keep the darkness at bay Hearing whispers from the Spirit telling me its okay Exhausted and tearful, I’m at my wits end Hoping nothing…

The Middle of the Storm

My eyes fill with tears As I remember years past Revealing how much pain That is buried there   There are such horrors Dug into my soul That rock me still Down to my core   The senseless bastard Dishonored, disrespected me But still I felt bound by loyalty And silenced by my own shame…

Unleashing the Monster

Writing out my life story Gives permission for doubts to rise Makes my heart race and I want to hide I feel like I’m drowning again Worthlessness, shame and darkness is here to destroy As the pain is stomping out any hope in me I must cry out to God and grasp something close To…

Celebrating, Remembering….a New Year is Upon Us

The end of the year With time to muse It was a dark time With so much to lose I found grace Through the love of God A new year shows promise With a prayer and a nod For our God was faithful And ever at my side Gave me the strength When I wanted…

On the Mountain top

From upon the mountaintop I gaze on the valley below There life giving rivers stop Full of damning  times of woe Oh how the depths try to cry out Contending the sorrow can win Desolation’s heart of doubt seeking to destroy me from within But now God’s joy it fills my heart Drowning away the…

Awakened

Deep into the pit of hell I found myself falling Every breath full of despair Fueled my soul’s bawling Clutching onto the darkness From the horrors of my past Thinking answers would be found within While my life was sinking fast Our gracious and loving God reached out his hand to me Gave my wounded…

Gratitude Abounds

We encroach upon a celebration With orange and red dancing about Wafting in smells of times gone by Time for family around the table Joyful moments spill into the day Trapping our hearts full of love Praise shines from our soul Bowed in humble adoration As blessings overflow Pausing. Just for a moment… Thanksgiving is…

Screaming from Within

The weight of tears  Filling the depths Echo the darkness Screaming from within  Sacred moments crushed By poisoned memories Piercing your side Casting love away in its wake Time stands still Challenging each breath Till you slip away Into the shadows