The Middle of the Storm

My eyes fill with tears As I remember years past Revealing how much pain That is buried there   There are such horrors Dug into my soul That rock me still Down to my core   The senseless bastard Dishonored, disrespected me But still I felt bound by loyalty And silenced by my own shame…

Unleashing the Monster

Writing out my life story Gives permission for doubts to rise Makes my heart race and I want to hide I feel like I’m drowning again Worthlessness, shame and darkness is here to destroy As the pain is stomping out any hope in me I must cry out to God and grasp something close To…

Celebrating, Remembering….a New Year is Upon Us

The end of the year With time to muse It was a dark time With so much to lose I found grace Through the love of God A new year shows promise With a prayer and a nod For our God was faithful And ever at my side Gave me the strength When I wanted…

On the Mountain top

From upon the mountaintop I gaze on the valley below There life giving rivers stop Full of damning  times of woe Oh how the depths try to cry out Contending the sorrow can win Desolation’s heart of doubt seeking to destroy me from within But now God’s joy it fills my heart Drowning away the…

Awakened

Deep into the pit of hell I found myself falling Every breath full of despair Fueled my soul’s bawling Clutching onto the darkness From the horrors of my past Thinking answers would be found within While my life was sinking fast Our gracious and loving God reached out his hand to me Gave my wounded…

Gratitude Abounds

We encroach upon a celebration With orange and red dancing about Wafting in smells of times gone by Time for family around the table Joyful moments spill into the day Trapping our hearts full of love Praise shines from our soul Bowed in humble adoration As blessings overflow Pausing. Just for a moment… Thanksgiving is…

Screaming from Within

The weight of tears  Filling the depths Echo the darkness Screaming from within  Sacred moments crushed By poisoned memories Piercing your side Casting love away in its wake Time stands still Challenging each breath Till you slip away Into the shadows

The Night Falls

Oh how the wind howls As winter stings the face Darkness rips across the sky  Crying for its mate Crisp leaves paint a rainbow Directing me on my way Birds scamper foolishly Keeping the time at bay Darkness clings to the hours Serenity fills the streams Slumber finds no foe at home A horizon winds…

Be Still

In the Stillness you are caressed by Hushed voices, Serene echoes Reaching out in an embrace You may feel you are dripping in filth scorched with shame But open your eyes~ you are blanketed in the Creators grace Oh that vile ache, stench of lies burrowed down inside Raging to bargain for your soul May…

Stolen Innocence

I debated whether I should post this poem–it was raw and painful to write. But if it helps one person to not feel so alone in their pain, then it is worth sharing. Statistics say that one in five girls and one in 2o boys endure child sexual abuse.  You are NOT alone.   Drained…

Dark Horizons

(Working through some stuff; so sorry. Thanks for reading) Dark horizons and hushed dreams overwhelm the soul Deep inside one can not escape the jagged edges Mirrored reflections show a little girl drowning with despair No one to comfort her cries- ambushed into silence becomes her fate Maybe light will shine in the morning….

That Vile Voice

Accepting oneself is an impossible task While haunted by memories of not measuring up Exhausting too much time chasing shadows Clutching onto damning echoes that crush the spirit That vile voice Shredding me apart Is the only one That speaks so loudly Maybe that voice speaks truth- Cause I am the one failing, always missing…